IT Will Be GOOD!

While praying about 2017 and asking God what he might have in store. I felt the words Adventure and Miracles. So, I started off New Year’s Day applying to a YWAM school in France. God’s been telling me for a while now to study His word. So, I’ve been reading more, I even borrowed a book on how to study inductively, but I never seemed to find the motivation to actually do it on my own. Then I received a message about doing a BCC (Bible Core Course) with YWAM in Kona (Hawaii), hmm, that’s an idea I thought, but kind of tucked it away. A friend was praying about moving to Hawaii and asked me to pray. So, I did. I started asking God what He had for them. God said I’m not telling you about them, but you are going. Wait, what? I was at once thrilled and panicked. What would I do there? Where did I fit? Then I remembered what God had been calling me into. So, I went online to apply for the BCC. Then I saw the one in France, clicked the link, read the description, oh my heart. NO! I’m going to Hawaii! I read the description for the same course in Kona…meh. I went back to the YWAM France website and thought, well, I’ll e-mail and see. Yeah, they responded in a day.

First of all, It was New Year’s, so I figured it would take awhile. Second, it’s YWAM, it always takes awhile! Right then, I knew. I applied, requested my references to fill out their forms, and was accepted almost immediately. I couldn’t believe it and I could. Over the past few weeks, I have sorted through most of my things, downsized immensely, put my car up for sale, and possibly have renters for my place. I have my plane ticket, and now it’s just a matter of finding someone to replace me at my job. (no easy task.. ha ha) I would like that to be soon, so I can start transitioning and passing on my information. God knows exactly how much time is needed to get everything done. D e e p B r e a t h !!

It’s a three month class, so I may or may not be home at the end of June. Last time I thought I would be gone six months and came back in three. So I’m learning to say Lord willing I will do this or that, but who knows what God has in store. Adventure! I know that for sure! When all this started and God said I was going, I fought it. I am comfortable here. I own my house, I have an amazing dog, really great friends (the kind that call you on your crap, and show up on your doorstep when you don’t answer your phone). I have a job, that may actually turn into something paid, and I’m good at it. Things at church are good. People are growing in their relationships with God and with each other. Why do I have to leave now?

I let the tears/words tumble out of my mouth while I sit and have coffee with my friend. Then I say, it’ll be fine, I trust God knows what is best for my heart, (something she has ingrained in me). She corrects me, and reminds me of how good our Father is. “No”, she says, “it won’t be fine, it will be good!” Yes, it will be good. Even leaving a friend that is constantly pointing me back to how good God is. A friend that has helped me to see God’s character like I never have before…Even that is Good.

Surrendering control of your life is hard. Letting God make all the decisions is hard, but it’s also the best decision I ever made! So I let go of what I think is good for me, and I embrace the things God says is good for me. Does this mean I’ll be happy, fulfilled, all my dreams will come true. Maybe, maybe not, but I know this next step will cause me to know Jesus more… and that is ALL that matters!

“He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose.”
― Jim Elliot

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